January 22, 2021
It’s no secret that the state of my mind is…complicated. Honestly, complicated is a huge understatement. There are times where I have stepped back and wondered what my life would be like if my mind was more cooperative.
Would I be happier?
Would I be more confident?
Would I be more successful?
I guess there is a possibility that all of those questions can be answered with a definitive yes. But I’m not so sure that the truth can be so easily explained.
Yes, my mental illnesses and all of my mind’s struggles have made things difficult throughout my life. But they have also taught me the importance of being resilient in the face of adversity. When life senselessly beats you to the ground, you have no choice but to try to stand back up again. It may take some time, but it can happen.
My hardships have led me to discovering recovery. It’s such a beautiful thing. Even when the world is going to utter shit, there is still hope to be found in recovery.
And Soos, I have to thank you for helping me get through everything. Yes, my relationship with religion and the church has weakened, but I think I have found a better sense of spiritual strength. I hope to grow in that strength every day.
I know you’ll be there to help me along my journey—just like you have before.