I sometimes feel as if I have lived for a thousand years. My body does not feel old or worn down by the passage of time, but my mind does. I never felt like I was really allowed to just be a kid, even when I was young. It was snatched away from me due to many reasons. All my life I have had to carry the burden that naturally comes with having a mind like mine, and it feels like nothing I do can lessen the burden. I don’t know where to go from here or what to do with my life next. I want to latch on to happiness, joy and peace and never let go, but my grip just isn’t strong enough. I want to know what it feels like to be ok. For one day of my existence I want to feel like a real kid. I want to have hope.